Just a Thought

Do you ever wonder about the little coincidences and small occurrences that happen every day in your routine rituals? Sometimes when I pay attention to the random stuff that happens to me I see the butterfly of events that occurred as a result that was meant to be. Here's an example..

So yesterday I got off work a little early and had no plans and nothing I had to do for the rest of the day (which for those who know me, this is rare!) . Due to the high activity of finals, birthdays, Christmas, and catching up on work, I felt a little worn out; so I was excited to go home and "kick back". Of course however, I wound up doing some "spring cleaning" and began thinking of all the other things I had been wanting to get done. My roommate even commented how she thought maybe I should kick back a little. AH whatever, I am just going to finish this real quick and then maybe get to that book I have been wanting to enjoy.

As I was searching for my keys to leave the house once again I realized I had misplaced them somehow (not unusual for me to lose my keys, but they were seriously lost!) So then I was stuck at home and unable to go do my errands. So I decided to continue with my tasks around the house. It was getting late and I was slightly irritated because I really wanted to go to the gym and still, no keys. As I was in my car, I randomly found my spare key that had been missing for months! It was too late for errands, but I was still able to go to the gym. The evening still proved to be enjoyable in the end with some "me" activities at home which is far and few between at times.

The next morning I was running a tad late (as usual) preparing for another persevering day. I needed to take out the trash and as I was gathering all of the bags together I dropped the gate key into the trash. Already running late and needing to exit the house in a timely matter, this frustrated me. As I was digging through to find the gate key, what did I also find? Low and behold were my set of keys just chilling in the trash bag. How did I do this?! No idea; I do not question my clumsiness anymore, I just accept it for me.

I started to think about it all though. Had I not lost my keys in the first place, I would have had another evening not spent in my home and would not have been "allowed" to take it a little easier than normal. Randomly after months of owning an absent spare key, I find it in time to be able to go to the gym when the other is missing. Had I not dropped the gate key into the trash, I would have thrown my set of keys away never to be found again.

One of my favorite quotes is "Everything happens for a reason." I know many people have heard this quote but how often do we really value it? I have always appreciated this quote on a larger scale, but I admit to not always applying it the meaning to "life's small annoyances". I think all too often we fall into the need of instant gratification of things we are unable to appreciate the small adventures unfolding before us. Next time some random annoyance occurs, don't let it ruin your day; wait for the pay off. Of course it is possible it really is just an annoyance, but there is nothing you can really do about it at that moment so why let is stress you out? Just kick back and listen to the signs around you, it may just be happening for a reason...

The Begining...

My whole life I have felt I had a power within me that was meant for something more. Something meant to do something that would make an impact or even a difference somewhere, somehow. I carry within myself a passion to make life so much more than merely a moment in time on this earth that is passed simply with motions of normal daily life. At times I get so frustrated because I have all this exuberance within me and I struggle to define what I am truly meant for. I also realize the possibility that I also just may never know this answer. Maybe the legacy of my words and actions left behind are simply all that is needed.

A struggle that accompanies this confusion is the separation of our childhood dreams and what truly is a reality of life. As a child we dream so boundlessly, genuinely believing we can actually reach the stars. As an adult these "rules" settle in instructing the need for responsibilities and squashing the idea that it is even possible to ever actually reach the stars. I wonder what is the truth though. I know physically we can't touch the stars, but we can reach them right? in a way at least? Why do we diminish the ideals we held as a child and settle for the monotony of adulthood? Where does the line of childhood dreams and adulthood really need to collide? I can distinguish the need to accept responsibilities and to not be as much kid-like, but at what point do we really have to settle?

Over the past few years I feel I have endured the many difficult transformations from child to adult, and a few more unique lessons to decipher and conquer. I was becoming sad at what the realities of adulthood were becoming. Someone once commented to me that maybe this is what it really is just all about. For a moment I was like wow yea, maybe life isn't as grand as what we dreamed and its just supposed to be this simple. My random feelings of euphoria and balance were becoming farther and farther apart. Life fell into the common pattern of survival rather than truly living. That internal passion and power felt so cold and lost and I lost a part of me. I was participating in the one-view tunnel of life that everyone around me accepted to drive through daily.

I had some extra time to ponder things lately and acknowledge these internal emotions. Deep down I knew this was not meant to be and I was not supposed to feel this way. All too often people don't take time to look around at their surroundings. There is so much life, inspirations, lessons, pain, victories, losses, happiness, sadness, etc. It is hard to accept with so much around us that life is simply meant to be survived. Our opportunities are endless, all we have to do is courageously reach for it and realize what's around and within ourselves.

I want to reignite my flame into an conflagration of passion. With my blog I will be exploiting the small things around me and taking in the lessons and beauty that so many fail to see. I want to be forced to look all around me instead of what is simply in front of me. I want to utilize my passions mostly with photography but possibly also art, music, literature, etc to help exploit these happenings. I am determined to conquer more than the usual and believe without a doubt I will. Onward with my journey, into the stars....